sangat rindu

Masjid Nabawi, Madinah.

Pic courtesy of me. 

I miss this place, the breathtaking view, the people, the routine that I woke up early in the morning for, the cool yet refreshing weather and the calmness. I just miss everything about this place. Rindu rasa yang aku tak perlu dan tak teringat untuk fikir urusan lain macam contohnya kerja program, result yang bakal keluar tak lama lagi (masa tu result belum keluar), urusan internship dan semua pasal lain. Yes, that feeling. 

I just love this place. Walaupun sejuk dia macam nak terkeluar asap dari mulut, yet still it was a pleasure for me. I love the feeling that aku rasa aku sangat dekat Rasulullah SAW. Rasa macam baginda ada dekat sebelah aku sahaja :') Rindu.

"Adik yang keras hati tu pun boleh teresak-esak masa tadah tangan" -Kakak.

Yes, I did. Often I did.

I was given the chance to come here at the age of 23, with my family. Alhamdulillah. 

Rasa macam nak tulis cerita pasal ni. Later bila ada kelapangan waktu, aku usahakan tulis semuanya di sini InsyaAllah. 

tak rindu

Pernah kan rasa gila dekat orang, dekat memori, dekat tempat yang kau rasa kalau pada masatu juga kau nak pergi jumpa orang tu/kembali ke memori manis malah pahit/berkunjung semula ke tempat tersebut. Tak, aku serius tengah rindu kat seseorang. Kahkah. 

Tapi orang kabor, bukan semua rindu tu kita boleh ucap. Bukan setiap kali rindu tu kita boleh luah. Kan? Kang kita kabor ke berulang kali dia jadi annoyed pula dengan kita. Clingy sangat pun tak ke mana juga kan? Ceh! Ayat nak sedapkan hati ke tu?

Sebenarnya macamni, bila dah start rindu ke something/someone, lepastu mula lah melarat rindu ke benda lain. Macam memula teringat sikit je kat something/someone, lepastu mula la putar imbas balik memori silam yang manis pahit, orang-orang yang dah lama tak ketemu ataupun tempat yang pernah kita kunjung tiba sebelumnya. Sebabtu tak suka nak mula rindu. Eh, ke aku sahaja yang perangai camni?

Tapi eh, kenapa tulis pasal ni? Tengah teringat kat someone la tu sebabtu tulis macam gini. 

Bai, nak tidur. Esok long day. Eh hari-hari pun long day bagi seorang aku. Moga seorang aku ini tabah dan kuat. Sikit lagi ni *tepuk bahu sendiri*.

senyap

Aku diam, bukan aku tak nampak.

Aku diam, aku perhati.

Aku diam, sebab aku malas banyak bunyi.

Aku diam, tapi kau pula seolah lari.

I leave it to you, my dear.

penghargaan

You don't do something with the intention just to get someone else's appreciation. You simply don't. What is the point of doing something nice though and telling people about it. And you said "I didn't hope for anything bla bla bla in return" that you actually meant that someone should at least give you some appreciation or you must be acknowledged for that. Should he/she says that he/she is proud of your good deeds too?

Pathetic yet annoying. 

You are so jobless that you live everyday to give someone else lectures on everything that you seems to know about. You are the only one that is right about everything. Pffttt. Please grow up and get a life. Oh, you are so old that you don't have to grow up anymore. You forget something that is called respect. 

Don't expect me to be polite to you next time we meet. I have already lost that little respect towards you.